Soy un (una?) chicharrone.

Woobie una borracha?...es verdad. Muchas cervezas y comida mexicanas.

La playa? Muy muy bonita y caliente.

Pero, ahora, woobie tienes cansado y ella quieres suenos.

Adios muchachas y muchachos!

Manana, woobie will espeaka the ingles...con verbas y otros palabras de ingles.

John and I had a mini Death Note Marathon. 

Misa rocks.

Something is up with me. I don't know what, but something is up.

I stopped taking the pill in early November, and I expected my cycle to be all over the place for awhile. The first 4-5 months, my period was everywhere from 20-60 days. Then it seemed to even out a bit more and hovered around 30 days.

My last period was May 1. We have been using other pretty reliable methods of birth control.

I have been attributing it to the adjustment from coming off the pill. But now I'm getting to the 70 day mark, and I'm starting to worry. No indication of it coming either. I'm just kinda bothered that it's been 9 months since I came off the pill, and I'm experiencing 70+ days without a period now after having a few months with some resemblance of normalcy? You never know, the human body is a crazy organism.

I don't really have what are considered to be the normal pregnancy symptoms. The only symptoms I have that could point that direction is the fact that I've been eating A LOT lately (mostly ice cream and chicken), and I had one instance of nausea earlier this weekend. I didn't throw up, but I did feel pretty queasy for about half an hour early in the morning as I was getting ready for work, and had no explanation for it. But that's one instance, and haven't experienced it since. The pants have been a tad tight, but for all I know that's because I haven't shown much restraint in my diet and could be bloating from a non-existent period. First Response was negative, but I bought an e.p.t. to test again tomorrow.

There's a very real possibility that the stress of not knowing what is going on is making it worse, but I've decided I've had enough. My annual exam is usually in August anyway, so I'm scheduling it sooner.

It very well could be a number of things, but something tells me that something isn't right. I wish I knew what it was, but I guess there's only one way to find out. It wouldn't be the worst thing in the world if I was pregnant, but it would certainly affect my plans. Things would have to be postponed and rearranged, but it is certainly manageable.

I think I'm making myself sick just stressing over not knowing what is going on with my body.

At this point, I will take any explanation, good or bad, just so I know what the deal is.

i've got to knit up three large (6 to 8 inch) swatches of the three major types of lace used in the wedding dress. this includes peacock eye feather charts from the pretty as a peacock shawl, the tail feathers from the bottom of the snow peacock veil/shawl from www.weavingroses.com and a sample of the oriel lace from barbara g walker's second knitting treasury. (which, i'm happy to say i have finally received from my local library. i now currently have all four books in my home, and will continue to simply renew them until they won't let me anymore.)

i am still trying to decide if i want the oriel lace out of the brown sock yarn pictured with the leaf pattern just last week, or if i want to use a silk/cashmere blend (fingering weight, natural cream) that i might be getting my hands on thanks to pickleboot. (gee. like that's going to be a tough choice. a good basic merino, or fucking silk and cashmere? there's a "well, duh!" moment. my only concern here is that if i use the silk/cashmere blend i won't be able to keep my hands off of my skirt through the whole night.) either way, the swatches are for charm city cakes to use as they wish, and they don't have to be exactly the yarn i'm using. they're just a stitch pattern reference. as such, i should probably do them all from the same yarn, and likely from fingering weight. i have leftover yarn from the peacock veil, so i'll probably just use that. what i can do instead, is sent a two or three inch snip of yarn with each swatch to show the color of what it's actually knit from. this way, i'm using leftover yarn for the stitch swatches, but still providing the actual colors of each item without wasting much needed yarn. it's a win win.

off to swatch!

tonks

i just got off of the phone with steve from charm city cakes and got my cancel/date shift question answered. i was concerned that if i book for june 16 of 2010 and lock that date in, but have to push back another year if i'm not done knitting, will there be a cancellation fee, or can we just roll the date? the good news is we can totally roll the date, so long as i notify well in advance. well, i'll know a good six months out from the date if i'm going to need more time or not, so this is a wonderful, beautiful thing.

now i just have to decide once and for all what the hell i'm doing. :( i wish i knew.

tonks

I stopped over at Kim's house last night, and I was wearing a dress.  She said, 'Oooh, wow, I like it. What a pretty dress! And white stockings!'

Of course, I wasn't wearing stockings.

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Sent: Sunday, July 06, 2008 12:07 AM

It's interesting - though you tagged this photograph as "I'm ready to love everything" and to me it looks like "I'm ready to lose everything," I wonder if in fact these vastly different phrases would still translate to the same meaning...




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Sent: Sunday, July 06, 2008 9:52 AM

I just showed this to my husband and he said "Thank God." It took us 6 months and we felt like failures.






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Sent: Sunday, July 06, 2008 7:51 PM
Subject: stat counter

I look forward to reading people's secrets every week and it makes me feel less lonely. Especially when I get to the bottom of the page and refresh and re-read stat counter to find that over 2400 people spent the last 4 minutes with ME!

...(152,903,926 - 152,906,332)




















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Sent: Sunday, July 06, 2008 9:15 AM

When I walk by a black person I'm afraid they will think I am racist if I do OR if I don't look at them.



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Sent: Sunday, July 06, 2008 12:36 PM

for the record, we minorities don't notice whether you look at us on the street or not. we're thinking about politics, the weather, and what to make for dinner - just like you.





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Sent: Sunday, July 06, 2008 3:09 AM

Hi Frank,

At 26, my first wrinkles have just started appearing on my forehead. At first I was upset, but then I realized it was due to the expression I make when I am interested or curious.

Now, I hope they only get deeper, because I would hate to loose that sense of wonder. Thanks for posting it so that I could remember how important it is to love something more than my appearance.



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Sent: Sunday, July 06, 2008 4:35 AM

Being an EMT made me question my faith in god, but my coworkers gave me faith in humanity.





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To: Frank Warren

I was reading PostSecret today and I happened to scroll down to the end of the page, and saw a photo of Kristin - a childhood friend that lived around the block from me in Florida. I did hear when she died, but I was very surprised to see the suicide hotline with Kristin's picture on it.

After researching how the Kristin Brooks Hope Center was founded I had to pass along to Kristin's husband, Reese, that the love he has for her is overwhelming. His devotion to her memory is remarkable, and I just wanted him to know that a friend who knew Kristin a long time ago was proud that she married someone like him. Their child is blessed to have parents like Kristin and Reese.

Thank you for all you do to help people in dark places find their light.





-----Email Message-----
From: Reese Butler [Founder, Kristin Brooks Hope Center]

The ability and opportunity to connect with one of Kristin's childhood friends was a miracle and a gift from the PostSecret community.

After Kristin's death I desperately tried to reach out to all the people she grew up with. It was important to me that people who did know her learned what happened to her and how they can prevent others from falling to the same fate.

For over 3 years the PostSecret community has helped people learn that they share some of the deepest and darkest secrets and are not alone

Thanks for this miracle.



-----Email Message-----
From: Frank Warren
Subject: Struggling to meet a July 9th deadline

The Kristin Brooks Hope Center needs your help today.

Become a member of the 99 CLUB. Call Reese directly to arrange for a larger donation 202-669-8500 (yes, that is Reese's direct phone number, please be respectful). You can also make a quick and easy PayPal donation.

All donations are fully tax deductible and 100% of your donation will go directly to HopeLine.





-----Email Message-----
From: Reese Butler [mailto:reese@hopeline.com]
Sent: Sunday, July 06, 2008 9:49 AM
Subject: the campaign is working!

Dear Frank,

Over $10,000 in 8 hours and we have over 500 new donors. You must read some of the comments from the PostSecret Community donors. We also have 55 [update: 60] members of the 99 CLUB. That represents a pledge of $275,000(!) [update: $300,000]. I will keep you posted as we make more progress.

Best always,
Reese

So, while I was sobbing this morning over being 32 and feeling like my life is pretty much over Coke and Sprite kept bringing me toys. Now that I have quit crying and feel a bit better they won't leave my side.

I love my boys.

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REALLY Random. As I finally got Season Three of Fraggle Rock and noticed this...

It's the same interview from the first season special features (Cheaters.) but I just noticed it now. Probably because of the giggling and the close ups.

Steve chipped a tooth! (Three years ago, but still. Random.)

This bike + this bike rack = NOT A GOOD TIME.
I may never recover from the three mile drive from Walmart home.
(The bike did make it, though, so I suppose I should calm down.)

Happy 4th of July everyone!

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J's grandmother passed away this evening. She was surrounded by family and loved ones. Funeral is on Wednesday. J is taking it pretty well, but I think that has a lot to do with the fact that we just saw her 2 weeks ago and she was looking pretty good at that time. We knew that she would slip pretty quickly once she decided that she was ready, so all she wanted was pain medication and she let go on July 3. We hope she's in peace and with her loved ones in heaven.

Am I the only one who missed this news?

Has anyone else heard this?

Pete Townshend Biography Due in September
Posted Mar 24th 2008 3:00PM by John D. Luerssen

Look for the extensive biography, 'Who Are You: The Life of Pete Townshend' – dubbed "an exhaustive, critically acclaimed study of the life and career of the legendary guitarist and composer" – to hit shelves this September. The book, which will be published overseas through Omnibus Press, is the result of 10 years of work by author Mark Wilkerson.

Wilkerson spent a decade researching and writing the 600-plus-page book, which features exclusive interviews with Townshend and several others, including Pete's brother Simon. Wilkerson's book looks back on Townshend's West London upbringing, homes in on the excitement he gave to the Who in their early years and covers his life through today. Edited by 'Anyway, Anyhow, Anywhere' co-author Andy Neill, it boasts a foreword by Who obsessive Eddie Vedder.

Wilkerson first published the book in its original incarnation through on-demand publisher Lulu in 2005. After getting the book into the hands of Townshend, as well as several critics who praised the tome, the rock legend agreed to participate. By summer 2007, a deal with Omnibus was secured. "The result of all this is a personal dream," Wilkerson says, admitting, "[It's] a rather strange methodology: Write the book, then do the interviews!"

I hereby rescind my unprovoked distaste for Kurt Vonnegut.

Cat's Cradle was awesome. Give me more!

Megan has inspired me.

Rhode Island does not inspire me so much. Lately. But the dance theatre company I've been performing with - DoubleShift Dance Theatre - makes me feel like an artist and I'm performing the beginnings of a monologue based solo piece at a festival here in August. I'm aching to be back in school and Emerson College will (hopefully) be a good fit for me. The more I think about it, the more I feel like I want to teach in some way or another. I truly believe there is increadible value in creating art with/for a specific community and it's time to put my art where my theory is. Or something like that.

So, here is to creating more and giving more and not taking myself too seriously all the time.

of unhinged knitter is live! hurray!